Silence has so many layers.....

Thank you all so much for your notes, texts and messages of concern. I know I have been off the grid a bit with my blog, and FB, and maybe life in general, but I appreciate everyone's concern, and warm thoughts.

Many things have happened in the last few weeks, good and bad. So...let me explain.

As I left off I was waiting for a PET scan and an MRI to check to see if the cancer‎ was gone from the areas that needed treatment. Specifically, the cervix, uterus and lymph nodes. The lymph nodes were of major concern, since they can carry the cancer anywhere, and the chance of spreading made me a high candidate.

The PET scan was un-eventful.   My mom and I travelled to Vancouver for it. Mom is now an old hand at being my chauffeur and taking care of where I need to be in Vancouver. It's funny, from someone who used to be so capable at doing pretty much everything, I still don't feel strong enough to get myself thru Vancouver traffic and to the hospital on my own. Again, thank goodness for my mom.

Once the scan was over, we had a nice dinner, and went back to the hotel room and crashed. Ok, I crashed. The next morning, we were up fairly early, early by my standards, late by my mom's, and off to the ferry. I had to get back to the island to have an MRI at the hospital that late afternoon. Also, I wanted to be home for when my sweet Sophie got home from school.

‎Next, I had the MRI. It was at a different hospital, so I knew I wouldn't run into my old friend from my last MRI. I was met with a wonderful woman tech who had a sing songy voice and was eager to make my MRI as pleasant as possible.

We got started right away, once again I was given a choice of music because the machine is so loud, I chose classical, it just really seemed like the safest bet....although, it is my personal goal to one day ask for The Sex Pistols.

The lovely tech got me settled on the table, ready to slide me into the machine. She put a few blankets on me, it was pretty cold in the room, so I didn't stop her, where normally I would. She also laid about 30lbs of film over my abdomen, and I was ready to begin. She closed the door, went into her control room, checked the mic to see if I could hear her, started up the machine, and started up the music....the Disney music. Snow White to be exact.

I thought maybe it was a bit of a joke, but nooo..uh huh...it was all the Disney princesses singing, in a more grown up classical way. Oh.EMM.GEE!

If that wasn't the worst, I had forgotten, that since all my treatments had thrown me into early menopause, if I get hot flashes, I get a few at night, around this time at night. So here I lay, listening to Disney princesses singing, I am also sweating so badly, I can feel drops trickling off my forhead!

I was kind of longing for Rob and his country tunes at that moment!

I'm kidding.

The test ran for about 45 minutes, but it seemed liked 45 hours.‎ I was so happy to get out of there!

As of Thursday, only the PET results are in. The very very good news is that the cancer in my cervix, uterus and lymph nodes...is all gone :)

The bad news is that they have found another mass, or affected tissue that is more cancer. It is localized, so as of today, I have been referred to a surgeon, as they feel it can simply be removed. 

That's all I know so far, obviously there is still more information to come, more tests, more boring pokes and prodes. I've done this before, and I can do this again.

I just want to say again, thank you all so very much for coming on this journey with me. When I started this blog in October, I expected a handful of people to read it, but as of last week, my blog has had over 10,000 hits! That's a lot of readers!

Have a very happy easter with your family, friends and loved ones!

xo