Chemo - Round 4

As much as I am happy with how low my numbers are, I've been down. I've had a tough time getting back on my feet from the last chemo, I didn't get my usual week where I feel great, and that's when I can get things done.‎ I start chemo number 5 in two days and I still don't feel well.

I've been down, of course when you aren't feeling well its hard to be cheery, but my mood has stayed low. I've missed summer completely, I've watched Sophie walk out the door, on her way to many adventures with others. I'm thankful for that, that she had things to do while I wasn't able to take her out, but I can't shake the guilt. I know there is nothing I can do about it, and that my main focus is for me to get well, I know this. I miss my life, I miss having a life, I miss a lot of things.

‎This is the first time I have felt apprehensive about going to chemo. All the other sessions I have been ok with. Maybe I'm just tired of being poked and prodded, tested and examined, questioned, and questioned some more. There is no break, no reprieve, even just for a little while. It's always there, cancer. I know I am in a fortunate position right now, I know it could be worse, I know this.

I will turn this low around, return to my normal goofy self....I always do, I just don't know when.  

Soon.

Thanks go to Wendy S, Emma G, Greg & Kim B, my Supermom and a very special thank you to Julie, your comment touched my heart, and I thank you for that.

xo

I have the BEST news......

I got a call from my Dr's fill in last Friday evening, regarding the results of my most recent CT Scan. The win is, the tumour on my omentum has shrunk, this is great news!

The not so great news was that he sent me to the ER because the CT Scan also showed that I have blood clots in my lungs. This is a side effect from chemo, it's not great, but treatable. I have to give myself injections in my tummy with blood thinners, until the clots are gone. The good news out of this tho, is that my blood oxygen level is high, and my breathing has not been effected. So, I will poke away at myself until the clots are gone.

Wait...it gets better :)

I had my usual check in on Wednesday before my chemo session that I had yesterday (8 hrs! blech..). I always see a nurse, then my Dr., then the pain clinic if necessary.  

The nurse and I discussed how bad I had it after the last round of chemo, she had some great suggestions, so hopefully I am going to be ok this time and not laid out for a week straight.

Wait, it gets better... :)

Then it was my Dr's turn, I assumed we were going to talk about how much my tumour had shrunk, and then about the blood clots. Instead, we were going to talk about my Tumour Marker. Meaning, thru blood cells, how much active blood cells with cancer are in my body. I was of course apprehensive to hear this news, it can be a daunting number...but, I am so glad I did.

In June, before I started chemo, my Tumour Marker was 50, at the end of July.... it was 3.7

Isn't that amazing news!!!!

Our plan now is to finish off the chemo sessions, after yesterday, I only have 2 more to do. I will have a few scans, then I will be set free for a bit.

Thank you all for your positive vibes, and thank you for reading my blog because all your positive comments keep me positive!

Happy Friday everyone!

Thanks as always to my kids and super mom, love you xox

SEE....told you it was good news!!

xox

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