So, lots has happened since the latest post. My beautiful, strong mom, the creater of this blog, passed away April 4th. She did not get to write her last blog like we discussed, so I thought I would.

   By reading even one off her blog posts, you can probably imagine how unbelievably strong she was. She fought as hard as she could for her family. She made things funny, and easy to talk about. Hence 'SarahvsPanda'!

   She was a firecracker. She knew what she wanted, and nothing could stop her. Not two chronic illnesses, and finally The Panda. For years she was in pain, but did her absolute best as a mom. Every single day for as long as I can remember, my sister, brother and I would go into her room the second we were home, to tell her every detail of our day. Sometimes she'd be half asleep, but we'd talk anyways. Because she was our best friend.

   Her decline was fast, one day she seemed very confused. Then she was in Hospice, for a week. She got more and more confused, she quickly lost control of her mind and body. She had a couple moments of clarity, in those few moments she was surrounded by loved ones. And made us laugh. I asked her if she needed anything, and she replied with, "Did you just say suck my di**?!" I defiantly did not! But there was the mom we knew, getting angry with us about our potty mouths. (Wich we learned from her!). Another time is when she woke me up in the middle of the night, yelling to get her a Diet Coke and was extremely insistent on this, no matter the time. Those who knew her well, knows that all she drank was Diet Coke! I never thought I'd miss those calls in the middle of the night...

 The last time I heard her laugh was two days before she died. It was beautiful. I never thought I could miss a quality like that as much as I do.

 She was loved, so so greatly. She went through hell and back in the last couple years. And it's not fair, but this is life. She suffered a long time, but she is now at peace, therefore so are we.

   She wrote to ease her pain, and this blog helped her greatly. Thank you for everyone who took the time to read it, we are so fortunate to have a little peice of Sarah with us forever. When we miss her, we can come back and remember this beautiful, courageous person. And how she touched our lives with her story, and her strength.