Happy New Year everyone, I hope this year brings excitement and joy to all of us.
It seems a bit late to talk about Christmas and New Years holidays, but our family had a great time together over both holidays.
I would rather keep talking about holidays and stuff, but I guess I should address the "panda" in the room.
I have only one side effect that's left from Chemo. My feet are always tender, mostly numb. If I step on the smallest piece of debris, it feels like glass going right into my skin, when really, I've just stepped on the crumbs of a Honey Nut Cheerio. My toes are especially numb, I constantly have to make sure I haven't broken a toe.
I have been to the Dr twice since my last post. Everything is fine, well except for the tumors of course. To date, they haven't spread. However, both visits I've been told there is no way to get rid of the cancer.
When I was first told we weren't going to do chemo right away, I thought I still had that option, sadly, now I don't, I never did.
My last visit at the Dr's, I was told to enjoy my "well time" for as long as it lasts.
Since the end of November, I've gotten back all my energy, some of my appetite, more importantly, I was well enough to start living again. I still feel this way, and will for as long as I can.
I fear, this may be one of my last or second to last posts about my journey with cancer. Just like some, who don't know what to say, I am finding it harder and harder to talk about. I'm afraid I would make a blog full of things I may not see, or places I will never go. That's not fair to you, or me.
This was a difficult blog to write, because it puts down into words what has only been spoken. This has been hard for me.
Thank you everyone for your love and support, I promise to live on my well time as long as I can.
Happy New Year
xo
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